One of the 80's favorite's

I wanna be the one to walk in the sun. Oh,girls, They wanna have fu-un.

Wow it worked and I remember my password!

Well lets see I left my day time very steady and well paying office job to be and over worked and abused in home nurse that made 3 cents more. Because I felt for some reason I should go back to wiping asses for a living and enjoy it. So I quit and now I am jobless sitting at the library thinking about looking for a job or going on welfare I haven't made a final decision.

 I moved in with a guy for 6 days then broke up with him adn moved out. I am bitch. I am better off alone. He called everyday afterwards. Trying to pick fights. Then one day he didn't call. Then he called the next day. I realized the day he didn't call I was happy, so I stopped answering the phone when I say his name on caller ID.

The one man I loved enough to ever stay with had a baby with his wife a couple days ago. If only I could suck more. I would, but I can't. I am pathetic for saying this even mattered but to me it did. I should crawl in a hole.

I have decided since this revelation I am better off alone and with nobody because I will only break up with them. Which I am oddly enough okay with.

posted by: amberlynn at 22:57 | link | comments |

Here I am.

1. I took a break, you know why and you know who you are. I am sure Greg would like to know about your posting form work. Aparently I don't think you are suppose to do it. HA

2. I turned 20.

3. I fell in love. hopefully for real this time.

posted by: amberlynn at 04:04 | link | comments (1) |

Answer needed.

Who do I know that works at Basin Electric Power Coop? Do you know?

posted by: amberlynn at 03:33 | link | comments |

Wow. Long Gone

I haven't posted in quite sometime. Alot of things have changed which is honestly no big deal. I forgot how nice it was to come in here and be verbally assualted in my comments by someone who doesn't even have the balls to leave a name (regardless if I know you or not). That pretty damn nice. Anyways I would suggest to the mean unknown commentor, you should really be careful whose buttons you press and how far you go because the things you say are not very nice and one day you might push someone to far. Who A. Might hurt themself or B. Might have enough time and computer knowledge and hatred toward you to track you down and hurt you.

While I am not this person.

Karma. What comes around goes around.

posted by: amberlynn at 23:46 | link | comments (4) |

Canada Land of Milk and Honey?

Why yes it is. One more step for mankind.

 

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/8391828/

posted by: amberlynn at 04:30 | link | comments (6) |

9.. 9.. your number is up.

1. I need a change.

2. Chris see the future. I barely see our present, sometimes. I love him and I need him and I want him. But I don't see it coming from him. I need patience. But its hard. When you didn't want anyone specific for so long and then all of a sudden do. You don't want to wait you want it all. You want to come fast to take you by suprise. To be sincere. to be cinematic. You want to be chased. To be worth it.

3. I hate to be mean and egotistical but I am (or at least was ) prettier then most of the girls in his past. And he seems embarassed of me. I used to have very good looking men that were much desired chasing me. I was something worth wanting. Someone people wanted. Now I guess I am not. The thing is even in our past he treated me like that. He says he doesn't but he does. I feel unpretty.

4. Scott asked me to marry him for finacial reasons. I think I might. He always tells people I am one of the prettiest girls he has ever known. And at one point was. He was nervous to talk to me. And even tripped. His brothers still make fun him. I do to.

5. Being considered pretty and feeling attractive. Means more to be the being smart.

6. I wish I was better

7. I wish I was motivated. To change.

8. I wish people didn't forget me, but then turn around and say then never did. They just moved on in 3 months. Is there a difference?

9. I wish when I died somebody else did to.

10. When I die I want someone to care enough to not want to live. (not to kill themself mind you just not want to live without me)

11. Brandon will be the only one to notice.

12. If I go soon Jeremiah will never even know or remember me. That is okay.

13. Scott asked me to marry him ... Did i mention it... I think I might. He might not right now love me best and I might not love him best right now but we are best friends, we are there for each other, we love each other, and he will love jeremiah as is his own. Sometimes love isn't what we it to be but rather what we are going to settle on. Maybe we will learn to love each other best.

14. I can't get over he married someone. else.

15.

 Christine is argueing with me that I can't marry him. " i thought you really cared about whats his name."

My response " at least with scott I know were I stand. He doesn't lie and tell me I am number one when I am not."

16. The more I think about it the more sense it makes. You are all invited. To my court room wedding in TX.

posted by: amberlynn at 00:38 | link | comments (2) |

who is guility and who is innocent.

Jackson verdict. Hmm. Everyone is asking me do you think he is guilty or innocent. Either way I won't be shocked. I am shocked by the mother who let her son sleep with him in the first place. I am shocked by the mother who basically whored her son to him. I would be shooked if he was convicted. I would be shocked if he went to jail. Nothing more. I am sure he damged the child I am just not sure to what extent was Jackson or the kid's mother.

posted by: amberlynn at 03:52 | link | comments |

Be Safe

When I was in highs chool or maybe middle school I used to have a teacher that would always just say have a safe weekend. He never elborated alot. 

 

Have a Safe weekend

posted by: amberlynn at 04:14 | link | comments (1) |

death come swiftly

If its true I will die. Somethings are better not knowing for sure. Well until you must know. Be Safe.

posted by: amberlynn at 20:23 | link | comments |

Congrats

"Jackson fans waited outside the courthouse Monday holding signs saying such things as “Only love. No crime. He’s innocent. Leave him alone,” “We shall overcome” and “Peter Pan rules.” A woman held a sign showing Mahatma Gandhi, Nelson Mandela, Martin Luther King Jr., and Jackson."

 

Wow just when thought the world couldn't get any crazier.

posted by: amberlynn at 20:20 | link | comments (1) |